Okay... So, I've started updating again. I'm using my writing as a kind of therapy to help me through all of the pressure and manipulation that I'm going through.

My latest is a kind of representation of how I'm currently feeling. I also thought it'd be kinda cool to see how other people view it. So if anyone wants to do any doodles, you are more than welcome to do so. I have my idea about it, but I'd like to see how others see it.

I will return to fanfiction sometime soon, but it's gonna be so hard. I have pressure coming from all of my subjects for coursework and I have exams coming up starting May, so I don't know how muchy writing I'll get done.

Okay, I understand it's been a while since I updated. There's loads of bad stuff going on at the minute.

I'm thankful to my close friends who have supported me throughout my period of being unwell (which hasn't ended). Unfortunately, even the doctor at the hospital can't put his finger on it.

I would also like to thank them for supporting me in my depression too after my relationship break up.

Now... I really want to write a nice shiny Nightwish fanfic that's all happy and stuffs but I haven't got any ideas... Any one have any ideas? I'll return to writing fics for people

I will get back to Blood Crosses at some point... lol...

I would just like to thank everyone who made my 18th a memorable day, and also to everyone who left me messages. It was an amazing sight to see so many people leave me messages, and for that I am deeply grateful.

Went to speak to my asthma nurse today who keeps tabs on my asthma... The doctors here have tried all that they can for me to get better, so I have to see a consultant to determine whether it's severe asthma or something else. Fingers crossed that it's nothing severe.

Wyrd Sisters takes place on April 23rd and 24th- The costume changes will be hilarious- from guard to robber to witch to an actor in the role of a duchess. Quite looking forward to it

Unfortunately I've caught my sister's cold, so I'm really feeling unwell. How appropriate when my university interview is tomorrow and I have an hour long fitness test lol.

Anyway, luffs you all very much

You never realise just how much you love someone until you lose them, until their face haunts your every dream, every thought, every memory.

It was Valentine's Day on Saturday.

I longed to see a Valentine's card behind my front door when I got home from work. But I didn't. There was nothing but a cold floor.

I longed to have someone whisper in my ear 'I love you' while holding me tight in their arms.

But a girl can only dream...

I came home to nothingness...

Reduced to little more than a lonely girl with a single red rose, waiting for someone to love her...

Okay... I am pretty freaking happy! I'm trying to rub my shinyness off on people!

I've had in depth talks with my mom... Things are looking better... I hope...

He still won't talk with me, which I'll soon change that.

Um... Total writer's block...

Uh... What to say? Hmm...

18 next Tuesday!!!

Thanks to everyone who has been there for me when I've needed them most